i fell in love with someone who doesn't exist
it turns out
Kris was not Kris
she was Jenn.
false names, false pictures
ten months
of fabrication
deceit
and untrue stories.
the internet is a
very very
very
dangerous place.
this will take a while to unravel
to disassociate
to regain stability
as i think back on
all the things that were said and felt
on the phone
every night as we talked
wanting
and being wanted
the serene tranquility
of having
a resting place
in my mind
to go to
in the middle
of the day…
And now i must unplug myself
from my life
and look for
a new one
once again.
i am ashamed
of my attachment
to the physical.
the world is ashamed
of the designs
of youth.
And i hope
she is ashamed
of herself.