I wouldn't forgive and I couldn't forget.
Every hurt created a debt;
a score that simply had to be met
for as long as I lived.
I never tamed my vicious streak
or learned to turn the other cheek,
but nurtured pain from week to week
for as long as it took.
I schemed and plotted every day
and dreamed it in a thousand ways.
Revenge is sweet - or so they say;
but I never found out.